possibly spring?

Some updates...
This is one of the pictures from the kid's birthday party...I did not have one for Chloe on her birthday, so we had a combination party on Trenton's birthday. She did have her own little cake, though. This darling is Trenton's friend Ava. One of Chloe's gifts had this lovely boa in the gift bag... the kids and Kitty loved it!

Chloe does love her dolls...she was so excited with this baby, it talks and says "Mama" and laughs. Totally cracks her up. :)

Here she is using the popcorn bowl for a hat! Silly baby!
Our Kitty is now a grown up cat who loved to nap in the sunshine coming in the back door. She says "pat pat" while petting him

My big girl is suuuch a Mommy's girl...she still is not walking, and one friend sugested maybe she is just happy to be carried all the time by her mommy. ...I am too indulgent, I know, but the days go so fast...How long will she be comming to me and and begging to be held?

How in tarnation did it get to be (nearly) the middle of March?! I am feeling old...my 30th year is here, and time is speeding up again. I heard a quote once from a 90 yr old lady; she said she felt like Christmas was coming around every 15 minutes!

My crocus bulbs are blossoming, and it has been almost warm the last few days. Ah spring, how glad I am to see you. I love spring in Indiana. Maybe its because there is such a contrast in the seasons. The blooming trees are the best part, I think.

Well, thats all for now, hopfully it won't be so long between posts next time! :)

happy New Year

I am sitting at the computer watching my one year old daughter play on the floor. She goes over to the couch and talks to the kitty, then back to the toybox to pull out some more things. She likes to play with the big lego blocks. I can tell she knows they fit together, even though she doesn't have the physical ability yet to build towers. She taps them together. I watch her potential. Babies are such wonderful pictures of potential, of future. She was born on the first day of the year, you know, and has been a little barometer of the years passage to me.

So are any of you (my imaginary audience) making resolutions for the new year? Part of me feels like it is a very silly idea. I mean, why pick an arbitrary line in time and make promises to yourself that you know will be broken possibly even before the month is out. But on the other hand, its a lovely optimistic feeling to look ahead at the new year as a kind of clean slate, never been marked, where we can do better, put hurts behind us, and be the kind of person we want to be. In that spirit, I have thought of some things. In no order whatsoever, here they are.
In this new year, I will grow in my relationship with my Heavenly Father. Actually, this is probably not something that needs to be set as a goal, because I love Him and He loves me and I want to talk to Him all the time and hear what He says and this naturally leads to a deeper closeness.
I hope to be a better Mother to my babies this year. They are such amazing gifts, and I want to always remember that and treat them as such. I want to be more patient, more like Jesus to them. I want them to understand God's love a little bit by my example.
This year, I want to be the wife my husband needs. My heart longs for closeness with him, to truly feel connected. I need to learn and accept my failings, and somehow do better. I desperately need my Father's help.
In 2010, I will be more deliberate in my day to day life. More deliberate in my interactions with my family, more deliberate in my walk with God.
I will take better care of myself this year. I will acknowledge my own needs, and realize that I can better care for others when my own tank is full. This means getting a hair cut once in a while, or a pedicure, or a trip to the museum. Anything that leaves me feeling refreshed.

This past year has been one of the hardest for me. I know I have grown as a person, but so often growth only comes with pain, or so it seems at least. But I am so grateful as well. Some wonderful blessings came to me in 2009; my dear daughter, a wonderful church group, new depth in friendships, and a heavier leaning on Jesus.

Well, I know this may have been more personal than you were expecting. I hope you were not uncomfortable. ;) I have never been very good at facades, so as always, it is what it is!

I hope you are looking forward to your new year as I am, with an optimistic heart and faith in your heavenly Father's love.